derealization

[e30lov]

^^ My advice for the above two posters is to seek some help. Who knows, one simple session with a therapist may cure you.

[mikeedler]

I just buy ALOT of car parts, it seems to always give me something to do, and makes me happy to buy car stuff.

WOW, I thought what you guys were all explaining was just something I experienced from when I used to smoke PCP and do lots of LSD back in H.S., and it just left a little retardedness in me.

I don't seem to feel like that too often though, and my wife is really damn good at pulling me back in line when I get "outthere".

[Pantless Spency]

thank r3v for opening up my brain to a whole lot of fuck.


but tbh, I've never really felt this way, but time to time i think about similar things.

what is the point? why is all of this happening? is this predetermined? do my actions really make a difference?

the feeling of being part of some sort of grand scheme sitcom like the truman show idea.

but after thinking all these things, i just sit there and realize, no matter what happens everything will be okay. no matter what is truth and what is not i will live to see another day. and if i were to die today i will have believed in what i feel and no matter what happens next, i dont regret feeling content, i dont regret being okay with the ideas i had about life and shit.


truth is life is a mystery. you'll never know anything for certain, and you'll never know whats real and whats not. all you need to know is how to accept it and continue on with your life.



sorry if i strayed off topic at all, hope some of you guys find some insight in some of this.

as long as you are well and healthy you should be happy as fuck, because others are often less fortunate. and even those who are less fortunate have shit to be happy about.

[JinormusJ]

I only felt like this playing video games. Felt all crazy and surreal like I was dreaming and nothing around me was really real. The last time I've had an episode was at least 7 years ago. Maybe it could have been depersonalization because I was so in touch with the virtual world, I felt so detached from the real. Could have possibly been overstimulation causing my brain to proverbially "melt".

I never really knew anything was wrong since, as far as I remember, episodes only lasted a brief 5 seconds or so. Honestly, I liked the feeling and I thought it was just a feeling everyone got. Then again, I was like 13, so what the freak did I know

I guess now on second thought, I can kinda "force" myself into it by focusing really hard on oje specific area, and I kinda feel like I'm "zoning out". Don't know of that's DR or just zoning out though




EDIT:
I'd totally give Josh a hug. I know dat feel br0

[ohthejosh]

Its hard out there for a piimp.....

[F34R]

Must be high on life, I suggest you attempt depression.

[bmwstudent]

you're sitting right now staring at your computer. look up and look around you. does it feel real? does it all seem real to you? are your body and mind working in sync?

yes

[e30austin]

I know how you feel man, sometimes the depression takes over hard and turns into anger then rage for me. When I rage I get physical then I realize the wall is real. /derealization. LOL

Definitely been there, too. It's almost like "Inception," in a way. I almost wish I had never seen that movie.

For what it's worth, I got a dog, and it really seemed to help. Not a ton, but he's a good listener and someone to vent to.

[Raxe]

Keepin' it real yo.

[325ix]

Huh, I had no clue there was a name for this. It happens to me on occasion and it definitely does suck.

[shameson]

I feel like this almost every day and have for the past 3 years, along with pretty severe depression. I don't smoke, drink or partake of any other illegal substances, so I can rule that out. However, I have learned to deal with it by not caring about anything at all. Works pretty decently for me, but not a permanent solution. It's pretty liberating at times.

I know how you feel man, sometimes the depression takes over hard and turns into anger then rage for me. When I rage I get physical then I realize the wall is real. /derealization. LOL

Definitely been there, too. It's almost like "Inception," in a way. I almost wish I had never seen that movie.

For what it's worth, I got a dog, and it really seemed to help. Not a ton, but he's a good listener and someone to vent to.

Real talk dudes. I've felt the same way on an off for a few years. Had some problems cause of my personal view of myself that led to low self esteem. After some bullshit that happened to me with my ex, the depression came back for awhile and had days where I felt angry and then I would be in a state where i just disconnected with reality. It really sucks

Recently has been a lot better having my e30 and other things I'm passionate about to help cope. Havin some good friends and dogs is a plus.

Austin if you ever needs some venting or someone who can relate, lemme know if you chill

[e30austin]

Real talk dudes. I've felt the same way on an off for a few years. Had some problems cause of my personal view of myself that led to low self esteem. After some bullshit that happened to me with my ex, the depression came back for awhile and had days where I felt angry and then I would be in a state where i just disconnected with reality. It really sucks

Recently has been a lot better having my e30 and other things I'm passionate about to help cope. Havin some good friends and dogs is a plus.

Austin if you ever needs some venting or someone who can relate, lemme know if you chill

I feel a little better when I'm productive and get shit done, but if I don't get right out of bed as soon as I wake up, I lose all motivation to do anything the rest of the day. It's been a little better lately since I've had a few 24v swaps to do, but when my S50's done, I'm out of work for a little bit. Bring me more 24v's, people!! lol

Appreciate the sentiment, buddy. Good to know I'm not the only one...

[Yakinho]

Consider meditation. Seriously.

I've had a few of these episodes and you can attempt to decipher and analyze it all you want, but when it comes down to it you just need to accept that fact that it's there. Next time it happens, as soon as you notice it, just sit down and tell yourself that it's happening and it wont last. (Easier said than done, i know.) After that you need to identify the triggers so you can go about fixing the issue.

My main trigger was/is stress. For example:If i had a gig the next day, or a date later in the week with a girl i really wanted, *insert possible stressful situation here* then chances are the night before I would be pacing around and experiencing what you described. Sometimes it would happen the day before, a week, 2 weeks, whatever. Anyways, one day about 10 minutes after I woke up i felt like I was greening-out. (the way-too-high feeling people are describing here.) I paced around for a bit and was just generally having the worst emotional feelings I had ever felt, so i decided maybe a shower would help since they always help me sort out my thoughts. So i turned the water on, sat under the shower and attempted to figure out what the fuck was going on in my head. I started adjusting the water from cold to hot and kind of came to the opinion/realization that although the cold was uncomfortable, it was manageable and i was in control of it. After that I started to dive a little deeper in my head and try to get a grip on where my thought process was coming from and why I was reacting in this way. Took a little practice but i came to terms with about 80% of the shit that i was worrying about just didn't really matter. Tweaked my lifestyle a little bit after that and never looked back. Now I do still get these occasionally and do have the occasional green out, but I can literally get over them in minutes. Good luck.

[lolcantturn]

Consider meditation. Seriously.

I've had a few of these episodes and you can attempt to decipher and analyze it all you want, but when it comes down to it you just need to accept that fact that it's there. Next time it happens, as soon as you notice it, just sit down and tell yourself that it's happening and it wont last. (Easier said than done, i know.) After that you need to identify the triggers so you can go about fixing the issue.

My main trigger was/is stress. For example:If i had a gig the next day, or a date later in the week with a girl i really wanted, *insert possible stressful situation here* then chances are the night before I would be pacing around and experiencing what you described. Sometimes it would happen the day before, a week, 2 weeks, whatever. Anyways, one day about 10 minutes after I woke up i felt like I was greening-out. (the way-too-high feeling people are describing here.) I paced around for a bit and was just generally having the worst emotional feelings I had ever felt, so i decided maybe a shower would help since they always help me sort out my thoughts. So i turned the water on, sat under the shower and attempted to figure out what the fuck was going on in my head. I started adjusting the water from cold to hot and kind of came to the opinion/realization that although the cold was uncomfortable, it was manageable and i was in control of it. After that I started to dive a little deeper in my head and try to get a grip on where my thought process was coming from and why I was reacting in this way. Took a little practice but i came to terms with about 80% of the shit that i was worrying about just didn't really matter. Tweaked my lifestyle a little bit after that and never looked back. Now I do still get these occasionally and do have the occasional green out, but I can literally get over them in minutes. Good luck.

Good words!
I've been hooning and working on cars all day today, took my mind off of it completely for a long time, until I came back and read this thread haha.
I feel ok, not completely attached with reality, but It's livable, I'm sure I just need more time. I still have that "careless" feeling, where I don't care about much/ feel like nothing can happen to me. We'll see how it fairs out.

I've been taking 5-HTP supplements as of today, and it's supposed to augment your serotonin production, lots of success stories. I'm sure I'm still hormonally imbalanced since the panic attack/depression I had a few days ago.

[freeride53]

I have suffered from General Anxiety Disorder (GAD) for the 4 or 5 (most likely more) years of my life. It really surfaced in recent months through my test-taking at school, however I was able to receive accommodations from my school, and now get my own room for test-taking, when needed. Stress is a major issue for me at times.

I had a pretty traumatizing event in my life early last year, during my first quarter of college. I had a severe heat-stroke after an intense workout (which i've since done several times with flying colors). My body was in the process of shutting down and I was on the verge of incurring brain-damage, but several of my teammates, along with the athletic trainers at my school and paramedics saved my life.

For the next few months following that episode, I would have a few dark scenarios in which I experienced deep depression. This was very unlike me, as I had lived a comparatively happy and fun life up to then.

I still to date have never touched any anti-depressants, adderall for my side-effected ADD, or anything else. I use exercise as my drug - I'm on a rowing team that trains rigorously every morning/afternoon six days out of the week, and enjoy cycling on my own (may or may not try to get into competitive cycling next year..)

For me, stuff like: exercise, driving/working on cars, hanging our with homies, relationship with women and such all helps me cope with my problems. Most people don't know about my problems as I try to keep them to myself, however I believe that talking about this sort of stuff really puts in perspective - and is some of the best treatment available for it.

Also - another way I cope is by writing my daily tasks down in my day planner. I take that thing with me everywhere I go in my backpack. Tasks as daunting as doing a long, and difficult homework assignment or as simple as calling my family back home, all go in the planner. Writing in my planner is what I do when I wake up every single morning.

Remember, you are responsible for your own actions man. Try to do as much as you can to rid yourself of that "careless" and non-impacting feelings.

That whole heat-stroke bullshit happened to me because I WAS being careless. I was suffering from a sinus infection, on antibiotics, stress, and had consumed a bunch of alcohol while on them. Then on the day of my 15,000 meter rowing machine test, I had neglected hydration and nutrition, and combined with all of these factors and the hot weather, I was practically committing suicide without realizing it.

Best of luck,

Sina