Like Nikki Sixx.....back from the dead. (3-2 to 3-7)

[MR 325]

See Mariano, this is why you hang out with me. Beer won't do this :)

[CleanAzzE30z]

haha. True.


They gave me Narcon. I thknk thats why I came back so quickly.


Mariano

[AdironRider]

Wow, stay stong man, glad your still around.

[SlammedE30]

Wow M. I don't post much here, but I am SO thankful that you are still with us!

I'll keep you in my prayers. Stay strong, stay safe :)
-Ted

[Farbin Kaiber]

Sorry to bring up the past CleanAzzE30z, Iv'e been there before too. Just wanted to let you know, way to go.

[jflip2002]

Mariano, I dont know you, basically just a newbie to this site. But reading that is scary shit. Ive had a brother die due to a similar deal, though his was heroine, and his friends just bailed because they didnt want to get in trouble... after stealing all his shit that is.

But anyhow, glad to hear youre doing ok, but more importantly, hopefully this is the biggest life lesson you'll ever learn. Itd be fucked up to lose your life for yourself, true. But what about your family? What if your wife WASNT there?

Im sure you have a different outlook, and id really hope you wouldnt go there again. But what if you had died? What the fuck would have happened to your wife, family, and friends? I've had to live it on that side, where we are the "real victim" not my brother. He doesnt have to deal with the shit we think of, even to this day. And he died 6/16/96 at only 23, when I was 12. This shit still to this day hasnt left me. When we and my cousin get drunk, we still sometimes just think about old times and have a tear fest.

Glad alls ok man,really. I hope you do well in your future, and appreciate the second chance that is infact given to you.

[CleanAzzE30z]

Fuck yeah. Thank you for the support. Im all into school now and enjoying it. That shits not even on my mind.


Mariano

[e30 gangsta]

Fuck yeah. Thank you for the support. Im all into school now and enjoying it. That shits not even on my mind.


Mariano

Good stuff man. I cant believe i never read thread till now. I wish you the best. And if you are religious may God bless you.

[Jand3rson]

Fuck, I'm not religious at all, but I'll say that if there is a God, I think he's already taken care of our boy here. :up:

[e30sd]

that's crazy. put a pile of yay in front of me and you're liable to see a snowstorm

[e30devo]

mariano, i love you.

[payney8]

wow man that sucks had the same sort of thing happen to me used to drink a carton a night. One night just had to much passed out woke up 2 months later. Ever since then been dry that was 2 years ago living a much happier and funner life. Loving every minute of it.

[Farbin Kaiber]

We've all had our stories i'll bet on that. It's good to see those who have come out on top and used these types of events as a cathartic point instead of a jump off for the trip to rock bottom. Way to go, everyone...

[mtechnik]

WTH! How did I also miss this thread..

As other's have said, thnx for sharing in this thread. You truly are an awesome chap and I look forward to meeting sometime when i'm back in CA or you're in Europe.

Also glad your still here! Prayers for your continued recovery and perserverance

Family & freinds support can be sooo essential to persons trying to kick the habit of pretty much any addiction.
On of my fave shows is "INTERVENTION" which airs on A&E every Friday @ 10 P.M EST ( maybe 10PM pacific too?)
Watching it could prolly help you or others on this board who may be ready to kick their habits.

¡Dios te bendiga!

[BingM3]

Mariano:

Selling the M3 is the best cure!

Or it actually may turn things for the worse:)

Ill begin at the beginning. I came home Friday like every Friday ready to drink. Ive been clean now for 3+ years, by the way. I am telling you all this because I believe you deserve to gain knowledge from this experience. I was planning to kick it with my brother, drink, watch a few movies, and probably pass out like usual.

My brother left and a girl came over.

A littel backround. Ive been on antidepressants, and anti-anxiety medication for a long time, I have been working on beating all my addictions, and all my personality flaws that affect my quality of life since I was 17 yrs. old. In the past 2-3 years I have made lots of improvements, many of you can attest to this. Conentrating on my DUI programs, license suspension (as a lesson in life) and changing the way I generally deal with shitty situations. Re-learning the way to deal with the real world without drugs and the gang life.


Anyways, so this girl comes over and she has Morphine AND Vicodins (both of which I love and have done in limited amounts due to actual hospital situations). I stupidly decide to take both in a second of stupid judgement. I thought since I had controlled it before, itd be a great way to just relax on a Friday night.

Let me tell you, I have done days/weeks worth of cocaine/rock/alcohol (at the same time) and never had a problem physically. Never broken a bone, always been healthy, dont have any allergies, always been REALLY healthy. Ive done so much more to my body, and it has never even had a blip on the radar. I know some of you conservatives will judge me, and thats allrght.


Im thinking Im good to go, probablt expecting to pass out soon. Next thing I know Im in an ambulance. No joke. I went from watching TV, to checking out and waking up in an ambulance. People all yelling and giving me the bubble thing to help me breathe and all that. I got gurnied into the hospital and was all belligerent and violent with everyone (because to me, this was all really unexpected and was wondering where the fuck I was). I thought it was a dream. Imagine your last memory being at home going to sleep and SUDDENLY waking up with strangers hauling you about with needles in your veins and yelling at you to stay up.

I wake up Saturday morning and apparently (due to the witness accounts from my wife and the nurses) was blue when the paramedics got there barely 2 minutes after 911 had been called. They brought me into the E.R. and I was clinically dead even with the defibrulators being used. To them I was toast.


I had stopped breathing and was OUT, to say the least. I wake up and they find that my heart had just stopped, and that I have had Pneumonia for the longest time. Now... I have been running 6miles, I have been hitting the gym hard 4 days a week with NO problem. The doctors couldnt believe that I had done any of that seeing as I had pneumonia. They said that any other person would have already dropped dead LONG ago with all the activity and exercise I was doing. Wierd huh? I was living a normal life and being active and not feeling one fucking symptom of the pneumonia.


Im realy tripped out, guys. And if Julie wasnt around to call and notice my checking out on Friday....there is no question about it, I would not be here. So Ive been in the hospital and on many medications since Friday and coudnt make it to the meet on Saturday and was so pissed.

I dont know which one brought along which. but seeing as Ive done FAR more bad thing to my body and not even passed out, Im thinking that something wanted me to know I had pneumonia.


Im very ashamed to tell you guys I did "drugs" and felt the consequences, but this is just too much. Had Julie not been there, Id be dead. Ive done far worse things and not even had a problem (let alone the hosptial or death). Im just tripped out and really want to share it with you guys. Ive got needle pricks all up and down my arms due to the hospital. I cant forget the feeling of waking up in the ambulance for a while and thinking (holy shit, Im dreaming, Im on "Cops") or some cable TV show. They gave my Narcon or whatever that they give to Heroin OD victims that brings them right back to life. I think thats what brought me back.


I dunno guys. I just wanted to share this with you. I just got back from the hospital and am thinking things over. I was dead, man.




Mariano