Death sucks.

[FL318is]

Maybe I can help.

Ever since my initial cancer diagnosis I asked myself lot of questions.

Sadly all I ever got was numbing silence as a response. The real bitch of it all is none of us will ever know why or when. There is no sense or understanding we can grasp.

I live every day with the reality that my cancer can come back and I could die painfully. Your friend did not end his life, it had been ending.

A Catholic priest told us at my friend's closed casket services that he thinks when our job here is done we are called to go. Some of us are fast finishers. I believe we are all here to give more than we take. If you wonder how that could be, just look at the complete strangers here, giving.

Don't over think it. Take the gift of their memory and move forward.

[accident]

A very good friend of mine hanged himself earlier this year. Nobody saw it coming. Shit is rough, and I feel for you. The best advice I can give you is mourn your loss the way that's best for you, and fuck off to anyone who says you're doing it wrong.

[Edev]

The worst part is seeing someone who looks like her and it all comes flooding back.

This happened to me way too many times. Everyday for 2 weeks while I worked at a fair, I ALWAYS saw a girl who looked just like Aja. I had to do a double take to make sure I wasn't going crazy. It still happens from time to time.

At work tonight, all I could think about was the accident in August, and now Eriks mishap. I remembered all the good times we had. But then reality hit me like a brick wall. I could have busted out in tears right then and there because 5 of my good friends have passed away in a matter of months..but I couldn't because I was working.

The best advice I can give you is mourn your loss the way that's best for you, and fuck off to anyone who says you're doing it wrong.

This.

Thank you, and everyone else. I'd love to quote everyone who has commented, but that would be too much. I've read everyones response, and all have touched my heart.

My buddy Jason (1 of the 4 in August) once said at our graduation, "All my days are created equal, it's what one does with them that makes one superior to another."

That just makes my heart full.

[accident]

also be prepared for the bible thumpers to tell you he's going to hell. I almost knocked out some jesus freak for telling me that shit.

I've found that when dealing with suicide and other people it's best to just say he passed and leave it at that. People ask way too many questions when the word suicide comes into play.

Take care of yourself, the next few months will be very taxing.

[Holland]

Fucking Christians, lol I know I'm going to get knocked for that. I don't like Bible thumpers, can't you tell? Do watch out for them though, they might try to suck you in.

[pureaudio]

Fucking Christians, lol I know I'm going to get knocked for that. I don't like Bible thumpers, can't you tell? Do watch out for them though, they might try to suck you in.

There are crazies in any and all groups, Christian or otherwise. Grouping everyone with them makes you just as much of a stupid fuck as they are. The bible says the payment for sin is death so even if someone considers suicide to be sinful, your friend has paid his dues in a religious sense, just like we all will when we die.

[Edev]

Yeah, I've only said how he passed on here, and to close friends who wanted to know. As for those crazy bible people, I'm not going to say a word. I rarely ever see them, so I don't think that'll be an issue.

Our class took a class photo, and everytime I gander at it and look over the faces..five of them vanish from it. Just empty spaces. I obviously see them sitting there, but they start to dissolve from the photo. I don't try to do that, but it just happens. It's strange. Maybe it's a temporary issue, since all of this is so sudden.

[Holland]

There are crazies in any and all groups, Christian or otherwise. Grouping everyone with them makes you just as much of a stupid fuck as they are. The bible says the payment for sin is death so even if someone considers suicide to be sinful, your friend has paid his dues in a religious sense, just like we all will when we die.

I'm aware of that. I said it in a jokingly way. It's all in what each person believes. Honestly it doesn't even really matter what happens when you die. The only thing we know for sure is that we are here living and breathing with the freedom to lead out lives how we see we should. I have disagreements with a few of Christianity's views. I say that in a joking way but I know that there are good ones and corrupt ones. The way I see it though, the only way to live a good life is to act on your emotions and make the decisions you feel you should make. Only then will you have no regrets and when you do indeed die you can't argue about making the wrong choices. I won't get into my views on religion though. This thread is not for such things.

[pureaudio]

This thread is not for such things.

Agreed.

Back on topic, sorry for your losses. A really good friend of mine killed a 4 year old boy drunk driving and spent 10 years in jail for it. Within a year of being released, he took his own life because he could not let himself live after doing what he did. It was a strange time, did not know if I should be sad that he was gone or relieved that he no longer had to wrestle with something most people could never fathom living with. What really destroyed him was that the mother and father of the boy gave him their forgiveness for what he did, he never could accept it.

[Nicademus]

Jason Carter has the same birthday as me. Sorry this happened, I know how much it sucks.

My best friend died a couple years ago. It really sucks. I just watched a video of him playing guitar today. It made me sad, I miss him.

By the way, everything doesn't happen for a reason. We like to attach reason to things in order to better deal with them. Helps people carry on. This stupid dyke cop on the scene of my friends death was telling his mom "There's nothing you could have done. This is how his life was supposed to end". FFFFFFFFFFffffffffff that you stupid wench.

[der affe]

so i have spent most of my friday night in the ER with my dad. he is 71. it seems he may have had a "silent heart attack. to be honest he is starting to wind down, more health problrm as he gets older. just remember that you need to make evey moment count. he seems to ne ok, but they are keeping him over night for testing observation just incase, so i am not too worried, but you never know.

i know i am much older than moat members so this will not apply to most of you, but think about it when you spend time with your parents. somw day, they will not be there and you will not have a second chance.

[Nicademus]

so i have spent most of my friday night in the ER with my dad. he is 71. it seems he may have had a "silent heart attack. to be honest he is starting to wind down, more health problrm as he gets older. just remember that you need to make evey moment count. he seems to ne ok, but they are keeping him over night for testing observation just incase, so i am not too worried, but you never know.

i know i am much older than moat members so this will not apply to most of you, but think about it when you spend time with your parents. somw day, they will not be there and you will not have a second chance.

My uncle went to the hospital for blood clots in his leg. Once at the VA Hospital he proceeded to get infections and other BS. After about 2 months in a hospital he died. It really sucked, I was very close to him. He died a couple weeks ago.

[Jonny Cash]

Sorry to hear that.

But as much as death sucks, everything happens for a reason, and this particular incident may save your life one day if you know what i mean..

your still a puppy you have a long life to live. Many people close to you will die in your lifetime. What worked for me is being optomistic. It was their time to go, and hopefully theyre in a better place now.

[318isbmw]

Sorry to hear about that, its never fun to lose friends, but the good part is you'll never lose the memories.

I remember at our highschool they did like a fake car accident thing, and they kept it super hush hush so no one knew who it was ahead of time and they actually got the emt to come out and pull them out of a car and they'd fake dead and drive away and stuff like that and then we'd go inside and the parents were in on it and would say a last eulogy and stuff. Definitely opens your eyes when your forced to put into perspective like that.

[Vince30]

I am very very lucky to say i have never lost anyone that has been really close to me.
I cant even imagine what it would be like in your situation.
So all i can say is im very sorry for what has happened. And I hope the best for you and the families of your friends.