Forum thread that almost made me cry.....

[structured]

EDIT:

Just deleted that summary. This guy's life shouldn't be summed up in bullet points.

[Rau]

I read all about his suicide.

I having one leg, experience some of the same thoughts. I often hate God for what he has done. I question, why me? Why anybody? Why cant we all live without major health problems. I get mad at myself, and I dont know why myself, for having my damned 1 leg. I long for being able to run, and be able to do all the things everybody else can so effortlessly. I recently got my new leg, and the fit is exactly as good as my last, but that is because of the stupid fucking company that makes the liners for my skin... they dont make them long enough.

Having one leg, and a prosthetic, has made me realize the simplicity and efficiency of the human body. I hate how our advanced technologies cant design jackshit that can compare to a human knee. I fucking hate how I cant I drive a clutch properly. That is all I want nowadays, to be able to execute a perfect heel-toe, in an unmodified car. To be able to hop into anything and drive it like I stole it.

I have my leg off now, and I stare at my stump. I stare at it's fatty flesh and under-developed muscles. It's hair that is a wee bit shorter then that of me "good" leg; but even I cant call that leg good. All of it's extra stress is taking a toll, and Im fairly sure when I turn 30 I will know the feel of arthritis. I look at my friends, and their lives, and WISH to be like them. I feel often people avoid me because my health, although it is likely for other reasons.

Dont get me wrong, I damn well live life to the fullest; I'm a vulgar 15 and a half year old with a Washington State learner's permit and a commitment to life. I hang with my friends, I socialize, and many describe me as the happiest person they know. I guess I just need to stop bringing myself down?

That's all you needed to say, regardless of if you have a prosthetic or real leg.

[chrisesteschiro]

I know that this was a repost, and that can never be forgiven, but for those who are seeing this for the first time I have a word of caution. The thread outlining this enthusiast's travels, injury, and ultimate death is upsetting but not traumatizing. Feel free to read it.

Please, for your own mental health, don't read his essay. I honestly see no reason why anybody should ever read it in a casual setting. There is no need to read someone's thoughts and graphic description while they are committing suicide.

I am supposed to work today but I can't stop thinking about what I just read. Fuck.

Same deal I read the essay last night and couldnt sleep. Its all I can think about today at work. It definitely made me more thankful for my blessings.

[z31maniac]

I only read pg 13, so I'm guessing he went on a big ride and had a bad accident where he lost a limb or something?

[HarryPotter]

He hit a donkey in mexico and was paralyzed from his mid chest down, and two years later committed suicide. So fucking shitty.

[Conki]

I only read pg 13, so I'm guessing he went on a big ride and had a bad accident where he lost a limb or something?

Just read all his posts, he has like 10 of them from page 1 to page 13. You can skip everyone else's, however I read everything. And I'm supposed to study now, but I can't stop thinking about his story.

[HarryPotter]

is there a link to his essay I would like to read it.

[z31maniac]

He hit a donkey in mexico and was paralyzed from his mid chest down, and two years later committed suicide. So fucking shitty.

Definitely pretty shitty.

[Ryan...]

Cliffs:

Went on a big ride.
Updated along the way, sounded very fun.
Swerved to miss animal in road.
Paralyzed from nipples down.
Started Law school, sounded optimistic, updated his thread for a while.
Ended up committing suicide.

It was actually pretty sad, hate to hear shit like that :(

[chrisesteschiro]

is there a link to his essay I would like to read it.

http://claytonschwartz.blogspot.com/

Scroll down, it shows the anguish he was going through.

[daniel]

He hit a donkey in mexico and was paralyzed from his mid chest down, and two years later committed suicide. So fucking shitty.

that donkey sounds like an ass

[omar85]

that donkey sounds like an ass

not funny.

[z31maniac]

^I giggled.

[HarryPotter]

http://claytonschwartz.blogspot.com/

Scroll down, it shows the anguish he was going through.

Jesus Christ.

[u3b3rg33k]

that donkey sounds like an ass

not funny.

Idk man, I laughed.