Forum thread that almost made me cry.....

[Stephen]

Devastating.

[Wh33lhop]

And that is why I won't ever buy a motorcycle.

[mamzak]

Jesus Christ.

The end paragraph was almost to horrific to read. What..the...fuck.

I'm confused right now. Wow.

[IM AN ALIEN]

Guess I took it another way, as a fire under your butt to get out there and do something. So many young people sit on computers playing video games all day and just waste away. This guy could have done that, played video games and sat on a computer all day, but that is not living. Realize what you have and what you can do, then get out there and live while you can.

I agree with this... I read his blog/forum and it pretty much scared me to the point where I couldn't sleep last night. yeah I know I'm a waffleswaffleswaffleswaffleswaffles but I'm just being honest.

[xwill112x]

read his book or what not heres the link: http://claytonschwartz.blogspot.com/



fucking epic read.

[AlarmedBread]

Please, for your own mental health, don't read his essay. I honestly see no reason why anybody should ever read it in a casual setting. There is no need to read someone's thoughts and graphic description while they are committing suicide.

I am supposed to work today but I can't stop thinking about what I just read. Fuck.

Guess I took it another way, as a fire under your butt to get out there and do something. So many young people sit on computers playing video games all day and just waste away. This guy could have done that, played video games and sat on a computer all day, but that is not living. Realize what you have and what you can do, then get out there and live while you can.

[Fusion]

Damn. I'd rather base jump with those Finnish guys and end it epically.

[chrisesteschiro]

It doesn't hurt physically except for a raging headache then going into shock from loosing that much blood. I'm sure emotionally it hurts pretty bad watching yourself bleed to death.

[5Toes]

Haha Im plenty tough :)

Umm I'm imagining it did not hurt?

EDIT: I guess I was right - http://answers.yahoo.com/question/in...1230203AA77qCv

[Fusion]

^^ Stay tough man.

I didn't go through the whole story so excuse my retarded question, but provided that the guy was paralyzed from chest down, how did his stabbing himself in the stomach hurt?

[5Toes]

Hey guess what? My life isn't too bad? Im into to the good stuff... like BMW's :)

Im pretty sure anybody with a disability goes through it..

[AbsorbantNut]

He's expressing himself you fucking retard. If you don't have anything good to say just shut the fuck up.

Calm down buddy, I just didnt feel like hearing something like that, just like you didnt feel like hearing my comment on it.

[dreamchasin]

DId you really need to mention all this? I wouldve been fine with just the bottom

He's expressing himself you fucking retard. If you don't have anything good to say just shut the fuck up.

[BigTe30]

I read all about his suicide.

I having one leg, experience some of the same thoughts. I often hate God for what he has done. I question, why me? Why anybody? Why cant we all live without major health problems. I get mad at myself, and I dont know why myself, for having my damned 1 leg. I long for being able to run, and be able to do all the things everybody else can so effortlessly. I recently got my new leg, and the fit is exactly as good as my last, but that is because of the stupid fucking company that makes the liners for my skin... they dont make them long enough.

Having one leg, and a prosthetic, has made me realize the simplicity and efficiency of the human body. I hate how our advanced technologies cant design jackshit that can compare to a human knee. I fucking hate how I cant I drive a clutch properly. That is all I want nowadays, to be able to execute a perfect heel-toe, in an unmodified car. To be able to hop into anything and drive it like I stole it.

I have my leg off now, and I stare at my stump. I stare at it's fatty flesh and under-developed muscles. It's hair that is a wee bit shorter then that of me "good" leg; but even I cant call that leg good. All of it's extra stress is taking a toll, and Im fairly sure when I turn 30 I will know the feel of arthritis. I look at my friends, and their lives, and WISH to be like them. I feel often people avoid me because my health, although it is likely for other reasons.

Dont get me wrong, I damn well live life to the fullest; I'm a vulgar 15 and a half year old with a Washington State learner's permit and a commitment to life. I hang with my friends, I socialize, and many describe me as the happiest person they know. I guess I just need to stop bringing myself down?

Hey man, as someone close to your age, it is amazing think back on my life and see how different it could have been had i been in your circumstance; However different is just different, not different good or different bad, the difference is in what you make of it. Wishing, hoping, contemplating, doubting, these are all parts of human nature. No one in their right mind could expect you NOT to do these things, but you can't let it define who you are.

Clayton's story was not what i was expecting at all, i was sitting in the library at school and totally unprepared for that truly sad story. It was so emotional, and a terrible ending like that just hits you at your core. As much as this sounds corny, i don't think i will ever forget that.

[accident]

jesus christ.