Like Nikki Sixx.....back from the dead. (3-2 to 3-7)

[smooth]

did the same thing when I was just turning 18. death from alchohol, revived in the ambu. But here's the catch: my friend and his girlfriend and my old girlfriend no longer drink alcohol to this day. when I came back from the hospital after waking from my coma, I had no recollection of the incident. they puke from the smell of whiskey.

I'm just telling you this because it's possible that you won't *remember* the fear of dying, but the people who witnessed it will likely be more affected. it's a strange thing, especially since I can drink and get drunk and never really think of the incident except when I hear someone else who had a similar one.

I don't agree with a lot of the common beliefs surrounding addiction. but maybe that's because of my earlier years as an addict and now I can pick and choose my battles...the pneumonia doesn't surprise me either. I'm really prone to it and get "walking pneumonia" often. It doesn't feel like normal shitness, I can have it and have full lungs and still function.

There isn't really any deeper meaning to this post, just that if you ever just want to chat at one of these so cal meets, we probably have a lot of common background experiences. best of luck to you, there isn't really any great pearls of wisdom to be gained from this kind of thing, in my experience. just make you appreciate your time a lil more until the scare wears off again.

[cactusjacks1]

Mariano,
You are courageous for sharing this experience! You are courageous for having taken these steps in the past-

post #1
“ littel backround. Ive been on antidepressants, and anti-anxiety medication for a long time, I have been working on beating all my addictions, and all my personality flaws that affect my quality of life since I was 17 yrs. old. In the past 2-3 years I have made lots of improvements, many of you can attest to this. Conentrating on my DUI programs, license suspension (as a lesson in life) and changing the way I generally deal with shitty situations. Re-learning the way to deal with the real world without drugs and the gang life.”




We all stumble & fall –

post #2
"After being clean for a while, you always think a little taste wont hurt.”

post #5
“Life is all about getting back up when we fall down my friend. Just learn and continue to live clean. Best of luck to you.”.





Many of us have had a life changing experience. When we are young, we think we are invincible – we tend to venture toward & live on, the edge of the envelope. We start to learn our limits, we push it too far, go over the edge, end up on our back - looking up - HE finally got our attention!!

Post #11
“everything happens for a reason and maybe this was just a wake up call .... like a scare, you know?”

Post#23
“glad to hear that your ok, bro please let this be the final lesson, and never do stuff like that”

Post #25
“I'm glad you're okay, man. I've never come so close to death in my life. I bet your whole outlook has changed completely huh?”

Post #20
“You are a lucky lucky man. Goes to show you never know what the outcome will be no matter how much youve done it. Key is remembering it all the next time!”

Post #54
“You're an idiot, but there's must be something better for you in life if you're still alive.”

Post #39
“Props for honesty. You are here now for a reason - take that to heart.”






It’s time to shuffle the deck. Change Friends!! Choose those that encourage you – run from those that offer temptation (drugs etc.)

Post #15
“Find new freinds seriously. The faster you pull them off the better.”

Post #42
“Keep up the recovery, try to disassociate yourself with people that are doing that kind of stuff, maybe try and find things to do that aren't revolving around drinking/drugs AKA hanging out doing nothing. Keep it up man.”

Post #40
“My thoughts and prayers go out to you, man. You have to separate yourself from people who use - even if its your brother, his girl, whatever. Be strong. I'm pullin for you.”

Post #41
“Your a lucky man Mariano, take your survival as a sign, and dont use anymore, you are not a cat and do not have 9 lives...sound like youve gone through a few like me...
If you ever need anything, feel free to message me, i can give you my # and lots of knowledge, I've had to cousel quite a few of my druggy friends through bad times.”

Post #46
“Don't be afraid to ask a hand, your boys are some of your most important people. Needless to say, you should be thankful for having such friends who will be there for you, I commend them and you for being honest in this thread.”

Post #34
“I try my best to avoid hanging out with some of my friends due to this issue. It's life sobering, to know that for being selfish you would punish your friends and loved ones.”






Use your encouraging friends as a support group – a lot of us have “been there, done that” – this post speaks for many on this board.

Post #61
“just that if you ever just want to chat at one of these so cal meets, we probably have a lot of common background experiences. “






Your courage & honesty are already having a positive effect. That speaks volumes about you!

Post #53
“I think a lot of people can learn a lesson through you.”




Mariano, thanks for sharing this brutally honest episode. You are here, by HIS grace alone. There is a reason & a purpose for your life.

Jack
Philippians 4: 12-13


Thanks for this thread post quotes, go out to: bryan, e30devo, Joshh, e30 Groupie, YAN-3, M3fan4eva, SchnellerVert, LINUS, DaveCN,
german g, backtrail69, M42Technik, Equate975, bilson & smooth - Several of your many friends who've "got your back" while you work through this. Segments of their posts were used here & may have been taken out of context - please read full thread for their complete posts.

[CleanAzzE30z]

Im just so perplexed and thankful that without me even knowing I was really fucked up (usually I can tell and I dial it down a notch in my drug days) I was OUT!! Thats really scary to me, especially considering that I used to do literally half ounces of cocaine over the period of a few days, or drink for a weekend straight while doing tons of crystal, and NOTHING happened. And with doing this (to me) minimal amount of stuff made me check out. That scares me. Its a fucking roulette, and for what??? Nothing!!! Im not 22 anymore. Im not 18 anymore. Im approaching 30, I suppose my bodies telling me to just stop fucking around. Im just glad that I got this chance. It breaks my heart thinking of how my family would have dealt with my death. Especially knowing how good I was doing. It was one slip up and it brought all this. Im thinking of it in a positive manner. The girl that came over was actually a new friend, I had no idea she was a druggy. Ive even been in front of cocaine and hard drugs before and just not been interested in going that route. All these posts really help me out and thank you all for your words of support and wisdom. It means a hell of a lot.


And "the other side" was no light or tunnel. Its like you just are asleep. You just are OUT and you dont see anything. Youre just gone and you dont even have time to think about it. I was kciking it with my brother......was feeling ok......suddenly wake up with strangers yelling around me and holding me down in some truck......going out again until I was out of the ER and in the recovery room. Maybe a non-drug induced death experience would yield some more interesting "other side" stories.


Mariano


Mariano

[s0urce]

Glad you're ok man. What an insane experience to go through. With the death of my father in August, I know just how bizzare and crazy an experience like this is. The response time of paramedics is priceless. In my case they couldnt make it there quick enough for my Dad. I'm so happy to hear that everything worked out for you... Live a long life and never forget it.

[Court M3]

DAMN good luck staying clean man! Maybe just maybe this was your wake up call......

[ecuaE30]

Remember to thank the paramedics, not god. Modern Medicine saved your life not "HIM" as stated in "Philippians 4: 12-13".

"HE" is way beyond modern medicine, thats child's play for him.

[BimmerToad]

"HE" is way beyond modern medicine, thats child's play for him.

Let's keep religion vs science out of this one. Whether it was dumb luck, divine intervention, fate, or a combination of any of those is irrelevant ...

The point is that Mariano was in horrible shape, and miraculously pulled through. Hope you take advantage of the events that happened, make the right choices in the future and live a long and full life.

Besides, it would suck to have bought that Alpha-N system and not know the pleasure of driving with it installed ;)

[LINUS]

Let's keep religion vs science out of this one. Whether it was dumb luck, divine intervention, fate, or a combination of any of those is irrelevant ...

The point is that Mariano was in horrible shape, and miraculously pulled through. Hope you take advantage of the events that happened, make the right choices in the future and live a long and full life.

Besides, it would suck to have bought that Alpha-N system and not know the pleasure of driving with it installed ;)

Mariano doesn't own an M3, he sold it to me right before the bad night.....really, I mean it. Honest, guys. C'mon Mariano, you remember that, right?

Also, motion seconded to let bygones be bygones on the religion. Let's pick our battles, guys. Just be happy Mariano is alive, even if Bimmertoad did use a certain "m" word to describe how he attributed it.

Again, just glad you're with us Mariano.

[aaron.j]

Had julie not been there you wouldnt have gone to the hospital, because there would have been no need.

[CleanAzzE30z]

No. Julie came home and didnt know what the fuck was going on. Julies my wife. She came home and I was still compus. The other girl (with the drugs) made herself scarce. haha.


Mariano

[e30devo]

The other girl (with the drugs) made herself scarce. haha.


Mariano

probably a good thing eh?

[CleanAzzE30z]

probably a good thing eh?

definitely. Havent talked or heard from her since.

Mariano

[Jscotty]

No. Julie came home and didnt know what the fuck was going on. Julies my wife. She came home and I was still compus. The other girl (with the drugs) made herself scarce. haha.
Mariano

I guess it goes with the territory... when things start falling apart and the situation gets way out of hand your "friends" will dip out on you until everything settles down and they find out that everything is OK. So as soon as she knows that you are alive and well, she will resurface. Right now she is probably afraid to ask anyone about you because if by chance you happened to die, someone would ask her why she wanted to know and then eventually be suspected as the last person being with you prior to dying.

And this does not make them bad friends.. it just goes along with that kind of lifestyle.

[CleanAzzE30z]

very true. I know all that. Ive been through this path many a time. Im not planning on kicking it with her anyways, its someone that I knew literally for a few weeks.


Mariano

[LINUS]

I guess it goes with the territory... when things start falling apart and the situation gets way out of hand your "friends" will dip out on you until everything settles down and they find out that everything is OK.

And this does not make them bad friends.. it just goes along with that kind of lifestyle.

Just had to quote the applicable info, to set the stage for the receiving end of the whole normal scenario. I worked the ER, ambulances, etc. as part of my certification to be a medic in the oil refineries.
The ER folks call it a "drive-by dump-off" - as this is the case when you have a group of people doing a hardcore drug, realize one of their buddys / users has gone comatose, and wanting to "do the right thing", load their unconsious fellow user in a car, drive to the local ER's covered breezeway / driveway & dump their buddy out of the car, and promptly drive off.

It's not too bad if you see one coming, and the real stoners move in slow motion, so the skilled workers know to run out with a needle full of Narcon (sp?), then load them up and bring them in. The sketchers suck, because they pull to a weird spot and dang near hide their buddy, so you only find them waaay after possible treatment is possible. Sadly, despite my city being a small town, there seems to be a lot of heroin/morphine use, as the I-5 corridor up here gets a lot of drugs run through here.

Bummer how many people die because their buddies are too freaked to bring their buddies in proper. I hear the cops have a soft heart when it comes to this particular scenario, but try to convince a at-the-moment-high-user of that. Not too likely.

Anyhow, good J got you the care you needed, that's huge. You really got solid people in your life M, and that's worth more than money can buy. You are blessed. Take care, brother.