Forum thread that almost made me cry.....
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DId you really need to mention all this? I wouldve been fine with just the bottomI read all about his suicide.
I having one leg, experience some of the same thoughts. I often hate God for what he has done. I question, why me? Why anybody? Why cant we all live without major health problems. I get mad at myself, and I dont know why myself, for having my damned 1 leg. I long for being able to run, and be able to do all the things everybody else can so effortlessly. I recently got my new leg, and the fit is exactly as good as my last, but that is because of the stupid fucking company that makes the liners for my skin... they dont make them long enough.
Having one leg, and a prosthetic, has made me realize the simplicity and efficiency of the human body. I hate how our advanced technologies cant design jackshit that can compare to a human knee. I fucking hate how I cant I drive a clutch properly. That is all I want nowadays, to be able to execute a perfect heel-toe, in an unmodified car. To be able to hop into anything and drive it like I stole it.
I have my leg off now, and I stare at my stump. I stare at it's fatty flesh and under-developed muscles. It's hair that is a wee bit shorter then that of me "good" leg; but even I cant call that leg good. All of it's extra stress is taking a toll, and Im fairly sure when I turn 30 I will know the feel of arthritis. I look at my friends, and their lives, and WISH to be like them. I feel often people avoid me because my health, although it is likely for other reasons.
Dont get me wrong, I damn well live life to the fullest; I'm a vulgar 15 and a half year old with a Washington State learner's permit and a commitment to life. I hang with my friends, I socialize, and many describe me as the happiest person they know. I guess I just need to stop bringing myself down?
'73 2002 m20 turbo [sold] '87 rat rod 325is [couch modded] '91 vert [daily] '88 325is [spec build v1] '84 325 [spec build v2] '99 323i vert [sold]Comment
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Originally posted by teamdynasty43Aye listen here ph fucking dick cheese mother fucker ...go back to touching your self or your fucking boyfriend because you're just some dumb mother fucker that has no fucking life than other to ridicule others because you have no fuckin life and low self esteem so you try to make your self feel better so you act all big!!!! Sooooo get the fuck out of here and shut your stupid little Whore mouth the fuck up and just leave!Comment
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Hey man, as someone close to your age, it is amazing think back on my life and see how different it could have been had i been in your circumstance; However different is just different, not different good or different bad, the difference is in what you make of it. Wishing, hoping, contemplating, doubting, these are all parts of human nature. No one in their right mind could expect you NOT to do these things, but you can't let it define who you are.I read all about his suicide.
I having one leg, experience some of the same thoughts. I often hate God for what he has done. I question, why me? Why anybody? Why cant we all live without major health problems. I get mad at myself, and I dont know why myself, for having my damned 1 leg. I long for being able to run, and be able to do all the things everybody else can so effortlessly. I recently got my new leg, and the fit is exactly as good as my last, but that is because of the stupid fucking company that makes the liners for my skin... they dont make them long enough.
Having one leg, and a prosthetic, has made me realize the simplicity and efficiency of the human body. I hate how our advanced technologies cant design jackshit that can compare to a human knee. I fucking hate how I cant I drive a clutch properly. That is all I want nowadays, to be able to execute a perfect heel-toe, in an unmodified car. To be able to hop into anything and drive it like I stole it.
I have my leg off now, and I stare at my stump. I stare at it's fatty flesh and under-developed muscles. It's hair that is a wee bit shorter then that of me "good" leg; but even I cant call that leg good. All of it's extra stress is taking a toll, and Im fairly sure when I turn 30 I will know the feel of arthritis. I look at my friends, and their lives, and WISH to be like them. I feel often people avoid me because my health, although it is likely for other reasons.
Dont get me wrong, I damn well live life to the fullest; I'm a vulgar 15 and a half year old with a Washington State learner's permit and a commitment to life. I hang with my friends, I socialize, and many describe me as the happiest person they know. I guess I just need to stop bringing myself down?
Clayton's story was not what i was expecting at all, i was sitting in the library at school and totally unprepared for that truly sad story. It was so emotional, and a terrible ending like that just hits you at your core. As much as this sounds corny, i don't think i will ever forget that.
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'73 2002 m20 turbo [sold] '87 rat rod 325is [couch modded] '91 vert [daily] '88 325is [spec build v1] '84 325 [spec build v2] '99 323i vert [sold]Comment
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Haha Im plenty tough :)
Umm I'm imagining it did not hurt?
EDIT: I guess I was right - http://answers.yahoo.com/question/in...1230203AA77qCvComment
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It doesn't hurt physically except for a raging headache then going into shock from loosing that much blood. I'm sure emotionally it hurts pretty bad watching yourself bleed to death.Comment




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