I miss my best friend

[Exodus_2pt0]

Sorry for your loss, but anyone that takes their life is a coward.

Taking your own life is one of the bravest things anyone could do.

Disagree? Do you have it in you?

Honestly, killing yourself would be harder to do than face the consequences. The unknowns are bigger than we could even begin to imagine.

Even if you disagree, lets try not to judge the deceased.

I am very sorry to hear of this loss. I lost 2 long time friends last year within a month of each other. Both overdoses, the second one I saw at the first's funeral. Sad sad world we live in.

I think these guys said it best.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2W3u5yXt9Zc

[F34R]

I lost my mother and friend to suicide. Don't dwell on it too much but instead remember that person for what they were, not what they just did.

This^ I am getting a sleeve done up from my buds amazing artwork. I love to remember the smiles he brought in our group. Thanks for posting this OP, made me remember and not forget him :)

[Lodsin]

Taking your own life is one of the bravest things anyone could do.

Disagree? Do you have it in you?

Honestly, killing yourself would be harder to do than face the consequences. The unknowns are bigger than we could even begin to imagine.

Even if you disagree, lets try not to judge the deceased.

I am very sorry to hear of this loss. I lost 2 long time friends last year within a month of each other. Both overdoses, the second one I saw at the first's funeral. Sad sad world we live in.

I think these guys said it best.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2W3u5yXt9Zc

So quitting on something is harder to do than following through?

[walktheboard]

this isn't a debate thread, keep your shit to yourself.
sorry for your loss

[russhixmo]

He had problems with his emotions here and there but he never went to the extreme, nobody saw this coming, I was supposed to see him the night he passed but I never got an answer from him when I asked him when I was supposed to see him.

[ohthejosh]

I remember in High School we had a suicide prevention/awareness team come and speak about personal experiences and they told a story of a kid who was suicidal and on the day off when he decided to take his own life he went about his normal routine (we were told this is common in most suicides) and when he he finished what he needed to do he went to where he want to take his life, in this case it was to jump off the Golden Gate Bridge. He survived but he did say that on the walk and ride to the bridge all he wanted was someone to acknowledge him with a smile or a hi. On the 15 mins bus ride the 10 min walk across the tourist packed attraction not a single person smile nor said hi for that matter and he went through with the jump. Some people just need support and they need to have hope renewed constantly because everyone has a limit and it varies person to person. We are a pessimistic society and we lack the ability to be nice for no reason on a daily basis. Smile at a stranger once in a while and say hi, goodmorning, or whatever. It will help with situations like OPs friend. Whatever your opinion on suicide whether right or wrong it makes no difference a person lost their life and a board member is mourning.

Russhixmo stay strong bud, like other have said remember the goodtimes and let your buddy live in you through those memories.

[tg318is]

So sorry for ya dude. Condolences.

[Ayman]

Sorry for your loss :(

[Sagaris]

I remember in High School we had a suicide prevention/awareness team come and speak about personal experiences and they told a story of a kid who was suicidal and on the day off when he decided to take his own life he went about his normal routine (we were told this is common in most suicides) and when he he finished what he needed to do he went to where he want to take his life, in this case it was to jump off the Golden Gate Bridge. He survived but he did say that on the walk and ride to the bridge all he wanted was someone to acknowledge him with a smile or a hi. On the 15 mins bus ride the 10 min walk across the tourist packed attraction not a single person smile nor said hi for that matter and he went through with the jump. Some people just need support and they need to have hope renewed constantly because everyone has a limit and it varies person to person. We are a pessimistic society and we lack the ability to be nice for no reason on a daily basis. Smile at a stranger once in a while and say hi, goodmorning, or whatever. It will help with situations like OPs friend. Whatever your opinion on suicide whether right or wrong it makes no difference a person lost their life and a board member is mourning.

Russhixmo stay strong bud, like other have said remember the goodtimes and let your buddy live in you through those memories.

OP: sorry for your loss.

Josh, extremely good post. I agree with what you said. I hate how saying "Hi" to a stranger or being friendly can be taken as being flirtatious/annoying/weird.

When I lived in the Caribbean, there were some villages where if you did not acknowledge people you passed on the street, they would say "Why yuh passin' meh so?" and are offended that you didn't acknowledge them.

[RobertK]

Really hate to hear about your friend. That really sucks.

My condolences to you and his family.

[Turf1600]

I feel for his friends and family. Find peace in the fact that he is no longer suffering from whatever plagued him.

To the rest of you guys, suicide is a very personal decision and no one has any right to judge how senseless, selfish, or whatever else it may be. Also remember that what we know of people, even close friends, is often a small percentage of the reality of their existence. We live in a world where negatives are either avoided or overly publicized. Just look at facebook - all you ever hear is either how awesome or how horrible someone's life is. Distrust in both.

Also, any speculation regarding the direction of his child's life is pointless. It could either turn out to be a positive ot a negative - with neither necessarily being the fault of his late father.

[e30vert]

I once heard a psychiatrist say that each of us are actually 3 different people.
One is the one we choose to show to the world
Two is the one that we show to our family and close friends
Three is the hidden person that lives deep inside us and we do not show to anyone else.

That third person can be really bright and cheery or dark and evil.

Josh had some great insight that was gleaned from stories about people who commit suicide and his perspective was quite uplifting and positive in such times where it is easy to see all the negativity of a situation like this.

Move forward with your head held high as you know your lost friend would want it no other way and would only want the best for you.

[delatlanta1281]

Russ,
i am so sorry you have to go through this. Questions will never be answered, things will always be different. Celebrate his life with your old friends, relay his life to your new friends. Keep his memory with you as long as you live, and time will heal some of your grief. But keep in mind you will forever greave. That's what you do when you lose someone you love. Trust me, it isn't easy, and each day from here on out is different. Take a deep breath when it sucks, and be happy when it doesn't.

[russhixmo]

Thankyou so much r3v world

[gooseadrian]

sorry for your loss man. had a friend die a few years ago and it sucks.